Nadia

06:28 pm: Stuck en la Chamba
SO I AM STUCK AT WORK...NOT WORKING BUT WAITING FOR MY RIDE....GREAT! SO I HAVE NOTHING TO DO BUT WRITE SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS.
TODAY I WORKED FOR 11 HOURS WHICH IS INSANE I DONT ILL DO THAT AGAIN...HHMMM MAYBE IF NEED DINERO. THIS MONTH IS GOING BY SO FAST NEXT THING I KNOW IT WILL BE SEPTEMBER AND ILL BE IN SCHOOL AGAIN. GEEZ TALKING ABOUT DOING SOMETHING ES TAN FACIL BUT PUTTING WORDS INTO ACTION IS THE HARDEST. I MEAN I WANT TO ACCOMPLISH SO MANY THINGS BUT ACTUALLY WORKING AT IT IS WHAT THE CHALLENGE IS. I LIKE THE CHALLENGE IT MAKED ME FEEL ALIVE LIKE IM WORKING AT IT RATHER THAN SITTING SOMEWHERE LOOKING AT EVERYTHING HAPPE, ID RATHER MAKE IT HAPPEN.

I TALKED TO MY MOTHER TODAY ON THE PHONE FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES BUT SHE MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL. ITS SAD HOW I CAN TAKE HER FOR GRANTED BUT I THINK SHE DOES THE SAME TO ME. I MEAN I LOVE MY MOTHER BUT THERE IS TIMES WHEN I LEAVE HER AT THE END AND THAT IS REALLY SHADY FROM MY PART. I THINK THAT ITS BECAUSE I KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT SHE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME. I HATE DOING THAT AND ITS THE ONE THING I DO THE MOST.

I GUESS I AM ONLY HUMAN...BUT I REALLY NEED TO WORK AT IT. I MEAN THERE ARE MANY TIMES WHEN I STOP Y PEINSO GEEZ RIGHT NOW IS THE ONLY TIME I CAN BE SELFISH BECAUSE WHEN I HAVE A FAMILY OF MY OWN THATS WHAT IS GOING TO MATTER THE MOST AND I WONT CARE ABOUT MYSELF. MAYBE ITS A STUP WAY OF THINKING BUT IT MAKES SENSE TO ME.

OHH WELL MARINA IS OUT IN 3 MIN AND I AM MORE THAN READY TO GO HOME......MAYBE I SHOULD WRITE MORE OFTEN

03:41 pm: AT WORK
I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET FIRED BUT I DINT SO THATS REALLY GOOD...I GUESS. RIGHT NOW WE ARE ON OUR BREAK AND FOR SOME REASON TODAY HAS BEEN THE LONGEST DAY I JUST WANT TO GO HOME. WELL I DONT WANT TO GO HOME BUT WELL LEAVE. I WISH I CAN JUST GET ON A PLANE AND FLY AWAY TO SOME REMOTE PLACE WHERE I DONT KNOW ANYONE AND NO ONE KNOWS ME...HHMMM THAT WOULD BE NICE. AND THEN WHEN I GET TIRED OF BEING AWAY ILL CONSIDER COMING HOME OR WHY NOT SOME WHERE ELSE.
I DONT MIND WORKING ACTUALLY I GUESS IM JUST LAZY SOME TIMES. BUT THEN AGAIN I HAVE ALL MY LIFE TO WORK...WHICH KINDA SUX BUT I PLAN TO RETIRE SOON =/
MY PLANS FOR THE SUMMER NADA MAS TRABAJAR AND NOW AND THEN GO OUT. BUT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL. NOW I HAVE SET SOME GOALS FOR MYSELF AND I WILL ACOMPLISH THEM...I HOPE.
ONCE AGAIN LIKE LAST SUMMER I WANT TO PAINT MY ROOM AND GO ALL CRAZY WITH IT HHHMM MAYBE THAT WILL BE MY SUMMER PROJECT FOR REAL.

03:41 pm: AT WORK
HAVING A BLAST AT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=)

11:02 pm: Take a Deep Breath and Let it Go...
I dont want to talk about life cuz thats a constant stuggle. Como siempre me pasa lo mismo. Today i decided to cansel my old cell number now Im debating wheter to give out my new number or just not have a cell at all. I know having 1 is important aveces. At the moment I dont see a purpose in having one. Lets see i live @ home and there is where you can find me and if you cant what a pitty :/ So cell phones wow "convenient" just like many other things that are fucking us over. Any way life goes on with cell phone or without. Moving on I have so many aspirations that some times I'M amazed. Chingado this world is amazing everything about its awsome Im truly astonished by it. geez it makes me smile but just to think what i will contribute to it???????? I mean besides the trash. im lost So i want to put more time to myself working on the person i am...I did it before and i was coo i learned mucho pero todo se fue a la mierda so now i have to start all over again. At this moment i dont give a fuck about anyone i mean im not all self-centered but i think that i got to the point where im just fed up con todo! And i just want everyone to go to HELL. I am so tired of dealing with people i mean maybe seconds after im done with these ill call someone;/ Im used to living at home yet i am hopeful to leave soon. As you can see i Am a undeceive person but that doesnt matter cuz i just need to get some shit out of my head. maybe i should go read for a while use my enery in something productive.....

12:08 am: Para Ti

Eres la bomba atomica como tambien comica,
Se puede decir que eres algo comica.
Pues Claro homegirl you are mujer,

Mujer curvosa si aveces como
una penca de nopal vabosa,
Como un dia seras una esposa.

Mujer hermosa,
Para los hombres eres peligrosa
tienes que ser ferroz como una osa,
Por eso te dedico esta proza.

10:33 pm: Nothing Much
A journal how cool???? Not sure about that. So 2005 dont even want to talk about the things i want to do or will do cuz at the end it all turns into BS. yeah last year was hard but i got over it well im still working on letting sum things go. I want to get the best out of life. I mean why else are we alive? School is really important like many things. I am a hardheaded person and i think im right most of the time cuz at times I am. I make crazy assumptions but they are always negative hhmmm I should work on that. i like to learn i consider myself a nerd @ times. life is a journey so make the best out of it and live it up!!!